I used to be a hard core planner. I like control and I tried to stay 10 steps ahead and to always be prepared.
And then life reminded me that sometimes things happen that are outside of our control and that no amount of planning ahead of time can prepare us for what lies ahead.
Without a plan, my anxiety would creep in and the questions would start to build up. I would spend so much time worrying about what might go wrong instead of being excited about the journey that I was on.
Thoughts like, “what if I’m not good enough?” “what if I get fired?” “What if…..”
I think you can see the pattern here.
Until 2013 I lived my life in a kind of rigid fashion where I never stepped out of my comfort zone. Even the thought of doing so could generate anxiety and panic.